久违的中秋

今天是中秋节
也是我第一天上班
中秋佳节
人月两团圆
提醒了我原来离乡背井了多年
已经好久没有庆祝中秋了
月饼，灯笼
已经好久不见了


没想到回国后的第一次中秋
还是一个人过
自个儿对着电脑吃晚餐
没有月饼，灯笼
还好还有一轮明月相陪
从窗外眺望
只见天色阴暗
原来明月也是自个儿度中秋


在这里祝大家中秋节快乐
要珍惜这个的日子
无论是在家或在外
一个人或和家人一起
都不重要
最重要是　心　已经团圆了

20首有故事的歌

最近                李圣杰
我                  张国荣
害怕                林俊杰
爸爸妈妈            张栋梁
分开                杨乃文

怎么办              S.H.E

神啊，救救我吧！    陈小春

我只想要            7朵花

我们很好            林峰

十指紧扣            张智霖

一生不变            李克勤

我不想说再见        白雪

希望                陈慧琳

幸福不灭            罗志祥

如果你还爱我        光良 

忘记伤害            林峰

我们                南拳妈妈

宽恕                神木与瞳

一刀两断            张智霖

我难过              5566

等待的抉择

1     2     3


1是我目前最想要的选择
如果1不行
就唯有选择2
可是在这之间
我最想要的是3

怎么办？？？
第一次有那么迷茫的感觉
内心的挣扎

真得很煎熬
麻木地等待
最终会是什么样的结果呢？


this is just so shitty...omg...
when can i get a solution for this???
arrggghhh......!!!!!!

Coach Carter...again

Coach Carter

I have watched this movie for at least five times

I watched it again last night

every time I watched it

tears fell from my heart

there was no doubt and exception last night

the words that filled me the most

"Student Athlete"

STUDENT comes first

this word had long ago evoked my inner thoughts

that I have no reason to give up my studies

no matter how much I love sports

I am a student

my responsible is to study before I do anything else

What is your deepest fear?

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."                                                                                                              Marianne Williamson

this literally means: 

our deepest fear is not how imperfect we are

in fact

no one is perfect in this world

the scariest thing is not that we are in deficiency of anything

because nothing is impossible

we have to just do it to achieve our goals

our deepest fear is that we do not fulfill our true potential

we do not treasure what was given to us

we can be talented in any aspects 

but it can also be lamentable that we wasted our gift 

everyone has his own strength

when we proved that we deserve to stand 

we affect people around us

when we set ourself free from the dark

we lead people to the bright   

Coach Ken Carter 

at the end of the movie said

 "I came to coach basketball players, and you became students

        I came to teach boys, and you became men"

is time to be awake if you are not

is time to do the right thing and be a man

隆中 - 火焰战马

来了美国四年
曾经是这里的校队
感觉上这里的队伍就是有所不同
就我所知
美国，台湾的学校或队伍都有自己独特的队名
这个队名具代表性
因为它不仅仅是队名那么简单
而是象征着那个地方
代表着在那个圈子里的每一个人
不管他们运动与否
不管战绩是好是坏
队伍都是属于他们每一个人的


所以昨晚突然有个突如其来的想法
其实也不是突如其来
以前就有过的想法
只是直到昨晚才动笔创造
因为几次与中华校友和在籍球员组成的排球队
出去参加公开赛都不知用什么队名
曾经的“ABC"，"Chong Hwa Old Girls"。。。
所以想为中华冠上一个具有代表性的队名
代表着为体育付出的人
校友，老师， 教练，在籍球员，甚至整个中华


隆中 火焰战马队

首先是火焰，
火焰 (passion) - 意味着热情似火。就因为每个人心中都有着一团对运动的热诚，才可以撑过种种的苦练和苦战，继续接受迎面而来的挑战。也正因为这些艰苦辛酸，我们才知道自己的生命还在燃烧，熊熊的热诚没有因为荆棘艰辛而熄灭。

再来是马，
马(unity) - 意味着团结就是力量。中华，很容易就让人联想到中华龙。龙，也是团结的代表，领着一群人，让他们团结。可是更重要的是，龙是权利和地位的象征。我并不希望中华的健儿们有着一枝独秀的心理， 因为我还是坚信团结的力量最终来得还要大。


而战马，

战马(warrior spirit) - 意味着骑士精神。骑士精神是对人格的爱护和尊重，即使被压迫得走头无路，骑士和他的战马也还是不畏惧地向前冲，捍卫着身边的人。就算牺牲全部力量和生命，也觉得无悔的慷慨勇敢精神。有了着骑士矢志不渝的精神，才有无与伦比的骄傲和矜持。

无聊的创作，不过也还是希望有朝一日可以是隆中华的荣誉队徽

Mix & Match in March (3M)

今年的生日
在没有家人和好友的陪伴下
没什么期待
但还是感谢一班朋友为我的小庆祝
和facebook的祝福

刚放了一个礼拜的spring break
去了mount nebo camping
& pittsburgh for job interviews

再过不久就要毕业了
将来的一年里会在那里
就要看今天的决定了
可是我并没有忘记回家的路
在外面闯荡几年的日子
还是觉得家是最幸福的

dinner i cooked before leaving Pittsburgh

Pittsburgh downtown

nicole & me shopping hardly for my blazer

camping at mount nebo

On your mark...Get set...COUNTDOWN!!!

Today
it officially enters my 90 days countdown period of GRADUATION


90...89...88...87...86...

pathetic for the flying time
or excited for the coming future
i really have no idea
both feelings are fighting for a win
perhaps excitement is on advantage
but it fills with a little fear
i am indeed ready for the challenge in the real world
but worried that it would not turn out the way i want
i always tell myself 
is ok
life is a variable
a closing door will still got the light from an opened window
i have no control for the future
but i have a choice
i can choose to live for life
or to live for money
i was not born to be a money maker
so besides earning money
there are more in my life
i want to work on my dream

rather than saying that i am pathetic for the past time

it would be better to say that i miss my old days 

i miss those days when i practiced and went to competitions with friends

however

looking backward is not a reality

i should look to the bright and continue my dream

furthermore i am still young and able

in my 4 years of college

there is nothing more unforgettable than joining the soccer team

i lost my knee

now i am still fine with my knee after surgery

but how fully healed would it be is still an unknown

but i have no regret

because i would not know the happiness of being able

before i know the pain of being disable 

life 

despite being a variable and unknown

it is also a test

a test that full of ups and downs

people who can withstand the hardship

will be the victory in the end

this accident to many people may be a suffer or unfortunate

but to me it is a lesson 

it taught me the value of being healthy

i am contented for what i am now

it also taught me the courage to confront with life difficulties

i have the wisdom to step over any hurdles

as Chinese proverbs said

if we can't make anything to prevent it

we might as well sit back and enjoy it

i hope that i am blessed with everything i have 

白色祝福

新年是华人重要的佳节

今天，新年的第七天

是“人日”

意思是每个人的生日

我们一群远在海外留学的华人学生

虽然没有春假

更没能感受新春的气氛

可是上天也很眷顾我们

为我们送上了雪白的祝福

今天下起了一场雪

是我在这四年以来遇到下最多雪的一天

周围都被一片片浓密的雪花覆盖着

白雪茫茫的景色

令万物有着凄绝的美

学校也因此而取消上课两天

我的地方没有时常下雪

所以这份白色礼物

带给我们不少的欢乐

虽然有人怨恨天气的寒冷

可是也有人因为这样而满足

最少我是那个满足的

因为它让我在繁忙的生活中喘一口气

我想

一个人静静的躺在雪地上

让一片片的雪花大在脸上

也是不错的享受

在这里希望世界各地的华人

也得到上天的祝福和眷恋

生活事事顺境，更进一步

新年快乐

新一年，新希望
我希望自己身，心，灵都一样饱满

也在这里跟大家拜个早年

祝大家

新年进步，梦想成真

[ 家庭顺治，生活康熙，人品雍正，事业乾隆，万事嘉庆，前途道光，财富咸丰，内外同治，千秋光绪，万众宣统 ]

学周星驰说：“做人一定要有梦想，如果不是同条咸鱼（死人）有什么分别呢？”

电影推介

四部电影
来自不同国界
提取本地题材
充满本土色彩和人情风味
表现出平凡中的精彩
值得一看的

马来西亚
初恋红豆冰 Ice Kacang Puppy Love
《纯文艺恋爱》 - 阿牛

当天空还是蓝的
当世界还是简单的时候。。。
我们的回忆
我们的故事
我们的歌














香港
岁月疯狂 Echoes of the Rainbow
《岁月轻狂》 - 李治廷

一个单靠信念支撑的年代
在半难半佳中
他们奋力向前
一个对爱情无悔的年代
我们曾经如此相爱
即使生命如此相欺。。。
在变幻的生命里
岁月，原是最大的小偷。。。












台湾
海角七号 Cape No. 7
《国境之南》- 范逸臣

六十年前，七封寄不出的情书
找不到的旧时地址
六十年后，不可能组成乐队的七个人
为爱情找到地址
让热情重新爆发















中国
山楂树之恋 Under the Hawthorn Tree
《山楂树》 - 常石磊

那祭给迷失岁月的遗书
是我永生的痛楚
那唱过纯真年代的歌声
带我们找回最初。。。

21年来的致谢词

学期转眼间就完毕了
再过不久
2010年就会成为过去
明年5 月
我就完成我的大学生涯了
回头一望
我原来已经走了近21年的人生路
这21年来
开心与不开心的
都给了我很大的感触
很多人我需要道谢
谢谢他们陪我一起同甘共苦
因为有他们
才有今天的我
衷心地向大家说一句：谢谢！

我的家人：
谢谢你们给了我一个温馨的家
我在美国的时候
到过一些很美的地方
可是每当他们问我：“这个地方怎样？”
我的答案都是一样：“还可以。。。”
因为在我心目中
最好，最舒服，最美，最温馨的
永远都是我的家
没有任何地方可以媲美
谢谢家人给我的支持和爱护
爸爸，妈妈，两个哥哥和大嫂
还有我最敬爱的婆婆
虽然已经不在人世了
可是婆婆她依然在我心中
很怀念她的声音
我们嘴里总有说不出的爱
可是其实心里却很在乎对方
一家人总会有磨擦
也正因为这些摩擦
才让大家更了解对方
知道爱是要表达出来的
谢谢你们，我的家人

我的恩师：
老师教练
都是我人生中的启蒙老师
除了传授我知识之外
还教我做人的道理
我没有很会讨你们欢心
可是我对你们的敬爱是从心而发的
你们的教诲
我会铭记于心
谢谢你们，我的恩师

我的朋友：
朋友就像满天的星星
点缀了我的人生
小学，中学，大学和其他朋友
感谢你们陪我走的每一段路
让我知道除了家人
我还有你们的扶持
我很珍惜我们之间的友情
因为每一份友情都是很难得的
互不相识的人可以相聚在一起并非易事
我不懂得表达自己
所以我很感谢大家对我的耐心和包容
将来不论我在那里
我都不会忘记有你们这一班朋友
谢谢你们，我的朋友

我的战友：
一起并肩作战的队友
那些苦练，比赛的日子很难忘
比赛的情景至今还历历在目
回忆禁不住停留在那个时刻
练习，比赛虽然辛苦
可是也因为是苦战
才让我明白当中的乐趣
我们无形中也建立了默契
一起努力
一起享受成果
一切的辛苦都是值得的
有时结果没有很理想
可是过程中的激昂
很让我回味
我不会忘记那时的每一分每一秒
谢谢你们，我的战友

我的知己：
千金易买
知己难求
我没有很多知己
可是对我来说
一两个真正的知己已经很足够了
你们成为了我的倾诉对象
你们的细心聆听和安慰
为我注入了强心针
让我可以支撑跨越前面的困难
谢谢你们没有嫌我烦
没有你们
我根本走不出心灵上的创伤
人生于世上有多少知己
多少友谊能长存
人生得一知己
死而无憾
谢谢你们，我的知己

我的初恋：
人家常说
初恋时最难忘的
我不知道这句话有多真
可是至少对我来说
我的初恋是难忘的
有你在的日子是我一生中最幸福的
你对我的无微不至
让我感受到被爱的滋味
你曾经说我没有像以前那么快乐
那是因为以前和你一起的日子
有你帮我点缀
我没有后悔和你在一起
很谢谢你曾经在我生命中停下脚步
虽然现在只有你的脚印
可是已经今生无悔了
你让我学会爱与被爱
你给我的回忆
是我收到最好的一份礼物
要祝你幸福
是很难启齿的事
可是我会尽量学会放下
希望我心里的这番话不谁让你受到困扰
谢谢你，我的初恋

我的挚爱：
我的挚爱莫过于排球了
我很爱运动
尤其是排球
排球不仅让我认识了各位恩师
和一班出生入死的队友
更重要的是
排球让我正真地了解我自己
让我找回自己
球场上的我
就是最真实的我
没有半点隐藏
打球时的我很享受
就像展翅的鸟
在广阔的天空翱翔
原来我是那么热爱排球的
排球已经和我融为一体
我身上流着的是排球的血
它已成为了我生命中的最佳伙伴
谢谢你，我的挚爱

休息中

终于可以休息一下了...

趁着几天的假期
可以让自己心情宁静下来
让思想从烦恼中淘空
也未免不是件好事

充足电后
再拼搏一番...

初恋红豆冰

初恋红豆冰
Ice Kacang Puppy Love
很不错的一部电影

旧陈式的店铺
灰白的石桌椅
有缺口的咖啡杯
勾起了一幕幕
在新村里的童年回忆

妈妈总会把热腾腾的美禄
倒到碟里摊凉
还会替我叫两粒我最喜欢的生熟蛋
加上胡椒粉和酱油
大口大口的喝下去
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
初恋
永远是最甜蜜，最难忘的

就好像在最热最热的下午
吃进口里的红豆冰
又甜又冰
冷到舌头都痛了
但是
来不及去感受那个滋味
就融化掉了

A Letter from a Coach

Appakabar Su,

I have really enjoyed coaching you. Last year is still vivid in my mind. When we were looking for girls to play, some of the girls mentioned you. They said "there is this girl who is super competitive and athletic. She does all the intramurals. She is a volleyball player." Not knowing anyone very well, you came out had a practice and packed your bag for Memphis. We threw you into games too fast. I am sorry. Twenty minutes in and your knee buckled. I still remember talking to the Rhodes trainer and watching you warm-up on the sideline to go back in. What determination you had to reenter the game with the pain and instability that an ACL tear brings.

I thought over and over to myself, what we have done. We have within a week injured this young lady who is halfway around the world from her family. And now what? I have seen enough ACL rehabs to know how long and painful the process is.

You have an uncommon strength. You have not only gotten back on the field, you have improved tremendously with your understanding of soccer and with your skill. You have always payed within your abilities and because of that you make few mistakes.

You have an uncommon depth of character. I have enjoyed our many conversations this fall. I cherish the time i had to get to know you, Malaysia, Art in Austin and so much more. And i will miss your smile and positive attitude. They are infectious to us who have been around you.

Thanks Su and may God bless you.

p/s:

If i can ever do anything for you, i will.
Please keep in touch and let me know where life takes you.

Take care,
Bryan

My Short Soccer Career

Not long ago from now
I was still struggling and miserable about myself being in the soccer team
I was not sure why I am there
I keep asking myself should I still continue my soccer career
or just leave the team and back to my normal life

But I know that I love sports a lot
my passion in sports will not die easily
the devil in me cause me to be distressed at the same time
the angel in me telling not to give up
holding me stong out there on the field
the devil lost
my perserverance help me go through all the hard cores

Is hard
is really difficult to deal with it
firts dealing with the things that i'm not familiar with
second dealing with my injured knee
even my mentors back home advised me to stop playing sports before my knee fully recover
I knew they are worried about meas well as my families
but I'm glad i got support form them

Once I told a friend that I could not find any encouragement and enjoyment in soccer
because soccer involve a lots of running which I dislike the most
however
I still insist to give it a try
coming out with an injured knee I played my first match in this pre-season
MAGIC happens!!!
I ran fully 90 minutes on the field
trying to penetrate opponents
trying to play with my semi-skills
trying to help the team with whatever I have
trying to be a presentable left foward wing
I never ever thought that I can run 90 minutes
and yet still feel all right
I had a whole different view on soccer
the first time I step on the soccer field
I was a bit discourage by the huge field
how could 11 players share such a big field
compare to the volleyball court that fill with only 6 players a soccer field is way too big
but now i can proudly say a soccer field is not that large
I am able to dominate the space
I have no clue how soccer will affect my life
perhaps left some side effects and an ugly scar on my knee
no matter good or bad
I am sure that this short period of time in the soccer teamwill add a wonderdul page in my life
leaving me special memories

I am the mster of my fate
I am the captain of my soul (from movie: Invictus, poem by: William Ernest Henley)

回家的心声

不知不觉，我就快要回美国了
可是感觉上我好像才刚回家啊。。。
回去后又要再等两年了

我每次都很内疚
因为我在学校时
大部分时间都放在排球上
很少跟班上的朋友出去
每次回来，都总觉得很不是时候
因为朋友们都要上课
不过感谢的还可以跟他们出去玩玩
一起唱K看戏，一起赌牌，一起打球比赛
虽然在一起的时间很少
但却很珍贵
我会很珍惜这份友情
出到去才知道
我再也找不到那么好的朋友
而且往好的方面想
这让我有时间认识我的学妹们
带他们去比赛

总觉得很想用我的能力和剩下的时间去帮她们
看见她们就会禁不住想起以往打球的日子
真的很充实
她们之中，我看到一些对排球是很有热心的
这是很好的
不过有些不好的地方却会令我有点失望
也许我跟她们混得太熟了
可是我不想用太凶的态度对她们
但是她们却好像不当我的话是一回事
很痛心。。。
我也不想让她们做难做的体能
可是要加强她们的弱点
就只能这样做
可是她们好像不明白我的苦心
想要进步，想要打好排球
就只有付出，加倍努力，刻苦耐劳
没有捷径可走
为什么没有人明白？？？
看到她们一些练习时那么不认真
也不知应该怎样让她们明白

也许我根本不适合做她们的副教
高中的球员有今天的态度都是我一手造成的
很失败，很失望，很无奈
现在的。。。
对她们我还是束手无策

不过我还是喜欢回家的感觉
是幸福快乐的
除了家，外面的世界都是一样的
‘回家的路
很漫长
我常常一个人
静静地想
几年的时光
汗水如花绽放
却没有花的芬芳’

回家真好！！！

我爱的人

在爱情的世界里
最伟大的爱情
莫过于看着深爱的他/她
投入别人幸福的怀抱
还要残忍地送上祝福
这个"我爱的人"
已经永远成为了独家记忆

原来爱情就是要牺牲才显得伟大

<我爱的人> 陈小春
我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好 祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属於另一个人
她真 幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨
她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情 永恆的嘲笑声

The Defective Beauty

Finally...
I have time to update my blog

I talked to a friend recently
about our past and the life turning point
I'd once thought that she is my best friend
but her best friend wasn't me
I was silly back then and I was so wrong
I used to go to her whenever I have problems
and she...?
she used to be the one that know all my secrets
I'm so glad that I have a friend like her
she is younger than me
but somehow...
she just can calmed me and advised me with her wisdom

since I leave to US
she had a hard time dealing with her life
but I am not there to help her
and she might already has friends that can lead her through the dark
but now that I'm back
it is the time that I should play her role
stand on her shoe and help her to go through her life changing moment
and I want her to know that I am always there to bring her to the bright
you know what?
I am so happy that day she told me that I am one of her best friends
and she wanted to tell me all her things

to me...
our ignorance, willfulness, rebel in the past isn't any bad thing
this is a life learning process that everyone has to go through
we learn to be better in these processes
just because of these imperfects
have turn to make our life perfect and wonderful
these imperfects are call...
the defective beauty

p/s to her:
you just need time to heal yourself
and I know you are doing well now
just keep it up
do whatever following your heart
trust me
it will lead you to the right path
when the time comes
you will be a completely new butterfly
that came off the struggling of chrysalis

Life's Pass-by

人生中
总有许多过路人
有的闯入你的世界
留下许多交集
有的却了了地经过
随着时间而消失

人生就是这样
永远不会有两个人是一样的
也不会有完美无缺的人

跟你谈得上合得来的人
就的一定要珍惜
把友谊升华到知己
跟你说不上几句话的人
就尽量保持良好关系
多一个朋友总比多一个敌人好

[友谊之光]
人生于世上有几多知己
多少友谊能长存
今日别离共你双双两握手
友谊常在你我心里
今天且有暂别
他朝也定能聚首
纵使不能会面
始终也是朋友
说有万里山
隔阻两地遥
不需见面
心中也知晓
友谊改不了



千金易买,知己难求
人生得一知己,死而无憾

2010 Life Handbook

Today, I am not giving any quote
Because i think this blog should not be limited to only sports
There are more things that need inspirations
like life, love, friendship, and others
With all these elements
will make this place a perfect world of inspiration
Therefore, i would like to share something that inspire one's life

HANDBOOK 2010

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar...
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants...
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18.. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20.. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.